Let me hate you again

Let the blood under my skin boil for you

Still consumed

I dream uselessly

Hopelessly

You elude me

You remind me how inept I am

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And it hurts how much I long for you

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This indifference we have

The fact that I still search for your face in crowds

It’s a one sided love

A one sided hatred

And you’ve emerged victorious

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I want you to see me

See how I live

See how pathetic I am without you

I want to fight

To scream

To tear into you and you into me

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If only to fill

The void that is in between us

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I miss you

I miss you so much it hurts

And you never loved me

Never did

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And no matter what

I lose